HEY!! I feel Good

I'm feeling surprisingly happy lately. I don't know why. Nothing in my life that I can think off is something you can call a 'joybringer'. I am trying to improve the overall quality of 'me' though. For instance, I've started to do my 'exercizes' more often and I have lost a little weight doing so :)

Also, I occasionally play soccer these days. This is not just beneficial to my overall health, but it's also a chance for me to see my friends after school (which is nice, because I don't see them a lot during school anymore, since I got held back a year). It is also convenient that I have become quite fond of the sport itself.

Maybe it's the sun that has changed my mood. God knows when the last time was that I could walk outside without a coat on. Even though I have my hay fever to worry about, I still prefer the sun over the typical Dutch cold weather. It's probably the most obvious cause for me being (relatively) happy. There is still plenty in my life that could change for the better, but this new mood of mine can help me be patient.

HEY!!

Milestone

Lately, I have been working on something important to me. Not homework, not even girls. All the effort that I was able to put into something was put into this:  Liking my singing voice.

Instead of trying to develop my singing voice to what others might like, I've been working hard to appreciate my own voice, in order to give myself a little ego-boost. One of the things I have learned from watching all the stand-up comedians making their jokes, is that 'self-esteem' is one's appreciation of him/herself. Katt Williams was the one who brought that up. I shouldn't have to wait for other people's approval in order to start liking parts of 'me'. I am who I am, and I will be who I am for the rest of my life. The best thing to do, is to be glad about the good things in me and to stop constantly doubting myself. 

This doesn't mean that I will be performing any time soon. I'm going to quote a good friend of mine here.

"The world isn't ready for a voice like mine".

For now, I will be the only one who wants to hear me sing, and I'm fine with that. Maybe later on, people will want to hear a voice like mine. Certain things just take a while. I'm sure that the talent in the video below hasn't always been appreciated either.