It's been several weeks since I last posted anything on here. I was waiting for something new to happen. Now there has.
The news?
I've been in my first relationship ever. It only lasted ten days (including a test week at school), but that's not the point. The relationship itself isn't even really important here. I've known the girl for a while, and we were pretty good friends, and so we tried to take it a little step further. However, since neither of us actually felt 'love', she saw no point in continuing this. I myself have no problem with a loveless relationship, as I don't think teenagers are responsible enough to handle a commitment like 'loving somebody' in the first place, but I seem to be alone with that opinion. I agreed to the 'break-up'. Nobody should be with someone else if they're not completely comfortable with the situation. If a girl is looking for 'love', I'm probably not the right guy for her now.
I'm still very happy that this "bf/gf" thingy happened though. Why? Two reasons (one shallow, one self-involved)
1. For about a week, I've been able to kiss the lips of what I consider a beautiful girl.
2. I now know that girls can be attracted to me, and that I don't have to be alone.
The first reason is pretty obvious, for every breathing heterosexual male would like to kiss beautiful girls. No further explanation needed. My other reason is just my newest ego-boost. I don't have to worry about finding the 'right' girl, before I can get into a relationship. I can have a lot of fun before even thinking about reaching that stage (which is definitely what I prefer). This little, and for some people, obvious fact might let me be a little less shy around girls, because I know that I can be attractive to some of them anyway. Also, I can have relationships with girls, without worrying about love, and without getting hurt when breaking up. (and yeah, that's a positive thing).
Some people say "you say this now, but when you find love, just the thought of breaking up will make you want to cry". Well, that's exactly the reason I don't want to find love now. I want to experience more in life, before sticking to that 'one person'. I want to experience more people.
If you disagree, please comment, I'd like to hear from whoever reads this shit.
yours sincerely,
Daniel (a.k.a Tigga, Tiggy, Tigga nigga, Tigga love, Mr. Tigglywinkles, Benji and Youtube)
