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My thoughts... they're gone.

My head... is empty.

My mind.... is clear.

Am I tired? Am i stupid? Am I done?

Have I reached some state of 'zen', which disables me from thinking about anything whatsoever?

My days are boring and filled with trivial activities, that I could easily do without. I could stare at a wall for over an hour, and waste the same amount of time that I normally do looking at internet sites. Neither of those require any effort on my part, seen as my brain just stops working as soon as I plug in my laptop. Even writing this is nothing more than a time-filler for me, as I cannot concentrate on my economics, and I needed to find something to distract me.

There are two extremes (in my eyes). On one side, there are people with rich lifes. After a day of school, they do sports, work or practise some form of art. In the weekends, they go out and enjoy themselves. They're hardly ever bored and always seem to find something to do. On the other side, there's me; the laziest bastard I can think off. A life that consists out of relaxation, procrastination and power naps can only be labelled 'poor'.

I need to do something, but that's where the lack of motivation comes in. It used to be so much easier. "Hey Daniel, you have to go to your gymnastics training", "Daniel, it's time for you to go to work" and "Daniel, we're going to play soccer outside, come with us". I just followed instructions. Now, I'm supposed to make the instructions. I don't know if I can. I hope I'll learn.